What is “normal,” anyway?
Like several of my previous posts, I originally wrote this two years ago:
I don’t know about you, but I have lived my life surrounded by people who do not understand pain. Sure, people have occasionally hurt themselves or gotten a headache, and then they take some aspirin or ibuprofen and it goes away. They have no concept of chronic pain.
One of the medications that a doctor gave me for my headaches turned me into a zombie. I was exhausted. I had no energy to do anything. I made it through my eight-hour work day, but I was too tired for a social life. One of my friends was complaining, because apparently I was impacting her ability to enjoy life. There was no consideration for how the situation was impacting my life!
Now, fast forward many years. I have been married for seven years and a mom for four. My husband is getting tired of my headaches. I know that he loves me very much and would really like the pain to go away. Some days, though, when he asks me why my head is hurting, it seems like he thinks that I could control it if I wanted to. As if I am choosing to have a headache. When I have several severe headache days in a row (I literally have a headache every day, I have just learned how to go on with life most of the time), he loses compassion. He gets tired of me not being able to do things like normal. So, he forces me back into making decisions and taking care of him and our daughter. I know he is at a loss as to how to deal with my headaches. I
am was, too. But sometimes people who do not live with chronic pain just don’t understand what it is like.
My daughter is super sweet – most of the time. I have had so many headache days that she will just come up to me and day, “I know you don’t feel well, mommy.” No four-year-old should have to deal with a “sick” mommy as often as she does. This is why I want to improve my health as much as I can in the areas that I can impact.
A new normal
Thankfully, this year I was talking with a colleague who suggested that I look into the LEAP/ MRT food sensitivity testing and protocol. I am not completely headache-free. Some days I do not have total control over the foods that I eat, so I still end up dizzy, lightheaded, or with a headache. Sometimes there are other things – like hormone changes – that lead to a headache. However, most days I feel much better than before. I can go enjoy activities and feel like a human. No more zombie life for this girl!